you
are everything i
never knew
to hope for.
the
purge was
necessary. Sorry if
i got
on you, though.
you
are a moon,
big as
hurt-hearted love.
True
North
not
harvesting self
worth from you
or anyone. the
addiction
to attention
and distraction
feeds
an identity
based
on validation. inadequate
because we're
not
in line with
purpose
and values. not tuned
into
ourselves.
this
competitive
activation
where one does not
want the
other
to grow
and leave
or be better and
advance faster - triggers
sabotage - hurts
all.
maybe
this is what
you have been
teaching me.
self - worth
and not
compromising.
i
need
the return
to simplicity, to love
within myself.
but what is love? i
heard
that its caring
about the others
experience
as much as your own.
its a feeling. its a decision.
it is abstract
and tangible.
we
had something.
so much
of our
relationship
may have
been invisibly
nurtured
through love.
yet here i am. still.
because of
devotion and
worth
and
deep
value,
maybe
a denial of
understanding.
but Love stood before we did.
it found. it connected.
always remaining. calm
and patient
and knowing
under each
and every
turbulent
ghastly
desire
storm. guiding when
there is no hope. Love is a force.
a nutrient. it has stated its place.
the growth
and protection
modes from the biology
of belief...
love and fear
can we have both at the same time
i question this as a strong yes.
its like we expect the same pain and disappointment
but what if...we open
and encourage
provide security
and expand...
Boundless love exists.
when it is pure, love is amicable
and coexists with other love
it
heightens and multiplies
and transcends.
abundance never
scarcity.
(i like to think that would be one of loves mantras)
we
transition. we get to
start new. over
and over. our truth is
love and beauty in
honest
imperfection.
together and
apart.
thank you
for letting some
light in.
it was very much needed.
--excerpts from the past I
