12.11.17

you have bound my heart 
with needles from each and every cedar
masquerading the mountain skies
with I along side; rather than
these sterlings 
who dissolve in their own aching
you remain at a distance
the trees in tribulation
the lullaby of the kings
choir descended
as you derive
from my heart
there is nothing greater
let alone destined
than the lush
budding
fertile 
being
that lies right 
beneath you
that which surrounds
what has been found
lingers in my nails
in the quivering of my skin
you remain a melody
the rings woven
within

28.10.17

clouds burst
heavy dew
wetness
on my lips

liquid sunshine
fall mist
condensation
on my chest

i can taste 
the moon
cold crater 
of you

23.10.17

At dusk I can see myself alive
In your pupils
Floating inside the blue bands
The little piece of sky you keep hidden
As I take in your skin...your neck
Smells like the moisture on a dirt floor
After you carry the embers of this city
Under my covers
I unravel into a thousand honest pieces
Watching you come towards me
because your nights climb my spine
and this bed is too big
For the rope that we wind

8.10.17

i have learned to piece debris from whatever washes ashore to build driftwood and rocks into intricate gardens there are times i cry and sink roots although keeping my eyes close i am pragmatic and adept sacrificing that which rubs to snip away at these tangled love knots where new growth can flourish stretching from old scars i am surprised by the volunteer who suddenly appeared disrupting my orderly planting bed blooming his heart out

5.10.17

in my left hand lies the gift of life. beating.

4.10.17


when you look at me

stars erupt 
wind blown
a kingdom is built
larks frame 
mountains sway
shiver
tremor
stagger
heart batter

 be still. be calm.

22.9.17

i speak once of steeping feet in the seven seas
of illuminating them there to oceanid him
to create sheets of white luminous
so that these bodies will become edible
submerged in effervescent brilliance
make it so and skin turns a new
softening as you seep slowly in
as my cells remember i forgive
so that we now immerse ourselves
apathy has nowhere else to sit
it will never requiem he repeats
though he still doesnt know
i often hear the same declaration
reversing in anothers simplicity
to luminescence my light...mirrored
as always breathing in his glare
i find my love transitioning clouds
waist deep in his inane
i vanish across blue fields
meandering the world
straying on the limniads edge
returning some times in time
for a door aching wide in the sky
and the moon setting free
played perfectly
in the neighbours tree
suddenly remembering
just how it all could be

8.9.17

My father walked me down to las posadas one calm winter night.
The fog was thick
And unable to see the stars
I quietly followed in.
Out of the duskiness
Appeared the familar
White lace shoulders and
Flickering lights.
Hands cusped in between ribs
Black hair settled on their backs
Tightly woven in a knot.
I remember the connection to our mother
Was stronger there than anywhere I had ever felt.
La Nuestra Senoras eyes gazed deeply all around
Against the dark nights
Their soft smiles
Gracious and enchanting
Hearty hearts of steel
I knew these people as
Warm
Willing
Weathered
By the storms of being dissipated
Blown into the winds of terror
A false divergence that made them illuminate ablaze
In contrast to the conservation of whiteness.

My grandmothers neighbor would come by
with a bag of tamales every so often.
Mass was held in the backyard
And I'd sit under the orange tree so that I could hear them speak in languages formed out of feelings
Sometimes they'd weep
Hold each others hands
in the lap of the other
Head draped on the families shoulder
There was a willingness
to carry the others heart
down to the river
and let it go.
Knowing that the same love
will always be carried within.
Even when we have lost sight of one another.

Snake skin and oiled hands
Chicano. Dark lips.
Chipped paint.
Earth scent ingrained.
Rough around the eyes
I can still see her in each and every
Holy One I continue by.

Ella siempre sera mi luz en la oscuridad.

1.9.17

I once heard a story of a girl who found her heart was placed so far from where she had left it. It seemed as though it had been picked up and carried to the farthest reaches of this earth where no one not just anyone would ever come across it. Here she was called following the eyes of someone elses light. Someone she could not reach. And here she found her heart in the hands of an undeniable belief.

29.8.17

 to the girl that welds in amber

 you are a love to be reckoned with
 a heart saturated with outspoken desires

 moonstruck

 on a belief of remembrance
 conceived in the coals
 validated by your ubiquity distributing itself
 here
 and there

 broken up like a dream that was meant to be lived

 every moment has been marked by you

 harnessed in the air

 hear her breathe

 take a step forward

 feel her
 winded

 death stays close
 while she sympathizes with the devil
 the way the world melts around her
 they bend into another
 his muscles still soften
 as she carries herself
 gracefully tied up in knots

 ***

 secured with luster
 reduced to embers
 set in fire

 continuously
 radiant
 midpoint

 eternally
 transmitting her story
 in the palm of my hand
I found your heart on the sidewalk early this morning
Dripping in the sweetest dew
I could not contain my excitement
For what a treasure to encompass
My own pleasure with

15.1.08

These things possible to have been said
I've uncurled in a swallowed sound
as I am of you and slightly the other

my name follows the shadow of yours
meanwhile she
catches shade in a valley of bees

we are meant to move forward without each other
but lacking little light i turn and hide

you have worn many names and faces, sir
to say you are undisciplined is a love of lies
your expectation wavers with the sky turning
what they all worked hard for stops

night mountains, a sharp silence

no longer a child
orphan, stoic, doctor, sir

firstborn
first abroad
first lost

as a child, he spoke as a child

abba
aboji

distance is relative, hinged
joints bend where other spaces would break
forced into a posture
object
stars move slowly across his face

this is now something recognized in my eyes

I am to say
who was but until the present never could be

I see and hear everything
I see and hear you

speak as simply as you can
without fire these words nearly sleep
the distance between

a shade platform
a hindered announcement
faces fanning in the heat

louder than the eyes having it
louder than the deer giving up its secrets on the tree

quietly we crawl under our covers
the house stands still after hours of unrest
delicate as folding screens these turns burn our faces

we will hear and we will see but we will not speak

broad light of day is a hard release
dark ambient mover
destiny holds swirling gates ajar
swallowed in the thousand flight
sun walkers collecting miracle sound engines a storm

lacking necessary endings
mystery transforms night into illusion
familiar object outland delivers

sight objects unearthing sound


na
nabi
nun
white
what lies


lost as a child
I spoke
sighted in the scrim and flash...
I sway

25.10.07

love child
retracing the steps to an intersection without a stop sign, waiting.
hidden fated past in the face the mirror casts, history likes to repeat itself.
back on the block to remember names and connections.
distances away, I remember gaps. arriving in a black cloud of delay and
indifference; the smoke clears.
family makes me resemble the redemption of their last memory.
history is made up of someones memories. people remember what they want.
the lines of life whine in their strife while the heart creates an oasis
of old things, collected for rainy days and the memory generates.
I knew myself before I spoke of the good times. the disconnected chords of
past didnt prevent a present from becoming a past.
whether its memoir or lineage, the old days are mysterious
occurrences that evolve into a sense of completion for my missing reason.
what follows me is the perpetual light of my shadow.
I come out like an essence, sometimes a simile of what others remember in others before me;
some sense of familiarity carries on the memories that comfort whats forgotten to
take me into the next moment and so on.
birth alone isnt a part of me, but its the extension of the tree,
I have never seen, will always search for; that's life.
I find myself here and wonder how much do I
need to know in order to know why and does it matter. my
destination isnt known, but the
fare is now due.

26.9.07

Is his life the tune of his human hands quiver
as they play out rhythms at his shoulders
in a refrain that comes to nothing more
than drumming of nervous architecture
to the straight on stare of strangers and friends
which melts our stories with what now becomes myth
in a man that is buried from within
by the loss decreed sanctimonious...
The sweet tremble of his hands excused
in order to show his capacity
to feel beyond the present.
For continuum weighs sympathy. There
is not sin in the baring of these days
that can calm this man to descent of what I desire

13.8.07

i.
Heading south people change and it seems, by degrees
imperceptible over decades. In this place
the small 'i' looks into flight theory
for a bird out of season. Life as a rule
consists of evidence, the gentle breeze
or the gale force, it leans on faith
towards chance with the family,
the friends & the lovers you take
a shine to. A belief that obscene amounts
of change alarms, if the people
you love will change with you.
But the saddest day is the one
where you find youve changed too
much and us not nearly enough.

ii.
Wing stretches the log fire burns, all through
a sleepless stretch of evening.
The small 'i' re-working words
is hemp loose, as ideas fall
with the passions onto paper.
At 4 a.m. body exhausted, walking
outside smoking another.
Plumes tickle and rise in the head,
drift from the hand and the mouth.
Theres a mounting chipper of birds all
about, they rustle and stir in the bush
behind. Drawn closer, no doubt
by the sweet stench that floats
thick, in Kanimblas subzero air.

iii.
Air spirals as its the vertigo and the wind
that gets me, holds me reticent
just one step away from the edge.
From the top of this plateau,
its a sheer drop into silence and
the cavernous mystery beneath.
The valley is fluted in layers of mist,
a scene stealer for the tourist and
the small 'i' alone on the stone
ledge of so vast an expanse.
Catching wits and breath,
I recall a friend having said that
a mountaineer once
saw god on K2s summit.

iv.
Weightless flight theres experience in that possibility,
in that solitary view of the infinite.
Precipitation clears from the valley
as birds and bird song wing
through the sunfiltered clouds.
And just beyond the falls
two iridescent rainbows form
the perfect tricolour arcs.
The sky is winter blue and enormous.
The small 'i' subdued, watches day
pass and the sun shine on the valley.
Considers how easy the choice
to take one step out and glide
weightless on air currents.

v.
Tail feathers and vegetation grow lush all the way
down through the pathway.
The legs winds the slim web of road
until it flattens out into brush country.
Horses graze close to the Tea Rooms
where theres hot food and a fire.
This valley less up close
less imposing than the view
from the top plateau suggests.
On the way back up echoes
of parrots and lyre.
The weather ominous as feathers
float with the snowfall when birds
lift from the trees and are gone.


vi.
Skyways in the old adobe home fire
warms flesh while the heart
beats slow and the small 'i' wonders
'where exactly in this anatomy
do wings fit?' In the cerebellum,
which itself feels nothing
synapses spark and push
memorys sharp edges
into tissue of the heart
or the head with no reply.
It makes no difference, what
the small 'i' decides - as just
because they can, birds will
stretch out their wings and fly.
what can
unsteady a person
bring her falling
into the deepest sky?
she swims
inside dreaming
lets go
of possibility
makes dizzy the first
bone-dry second
then blue surrounds…



*



her eyes let go
of every surface
resemble
every weather
she is everywhere
arms floating in blue

7.8.07

We will change the music for you. It will look like a field of buttercups, and sound like dinnertime.

29.7.07

a six-inch patch of life redemption

19.7.07

Si lo que has encontrado
Fue formado por materia pura
Nunca se pudrirá
Y tu puedes volver un día
Si fue solo un momento de luz
Como la explosión de una estrella
No encontraras nada cuando regreses
Pero habrás visto una explosión de luz.
Y esto solo ya habrá valido la pena
PC
A huluppa tree had been planted on the banks of the Euphrates
which is okay if you understand botany, distant locations
or even the prehistoric culture of dress codes because Gilgamesh
only wore animal skins which makes him sound eccentric
the way the flesh of the gods resided in his body and his face
was the face of one long journey followed by another.
It wasnt simple like tripping or waiting for the next day when he
could decipher unintelligible dreams. They had to have esoteric
meaning but all Gilgamesh would say was we must treasure
our dreams whatever the terror. He never mentioned what frightened
him or if he suffered nightmares as a child, waking in a cold
clammy bed which is understandable if his insides writhed with gods
lending delusional wings otherwise his wife would never
have had to say I need to touch this man to wake him.

Alison Eastley
I tremble beneath
fifty- Four fingers
in- Others entering
through- An excuse
for constant-
confusion

there might be dedications determined by the disciplined music of a thousand looms but what kind of day means another melodious shift...? ive been training my left arm to glimmer and am already accustomed to the heat of the forge....yet as for flames i head in all directions of yellow turning orange turning away...my gaze...and the watery foundations.
but love, if you were a globe, i could place a finger and match equator to longitude, then gather the topography into a fistful of embers. you might have brought the other motion with you, maybe you did draw three broad Xs across our earth. and i might have touched fingertip to fingertip, climbed the hill and surprised the city...but now
the junction exists in the field of our core.
Language is the place of the mind
as Space is the place of the body.

Hair dripping, as it were, south, while the ice-blue
inside of your mouth hisses letters through the rain.

To speak is to desire. So the gods judge.

The heart, an organ of fire. my fruit.
The soul, nail-bed as my gift.

17.7.07

mothers , seeds , gods



what do you wish for?
the heart leaps the heart opens the heart
closes the heart grieves

it becomes it sinks
into your palm it believes
I have sweetened you with my mouth flower
acacia blossoms in the time of three
foot snow this mild
spring winter

when I dream men it is always you
no longer

does it mean Ill wake
up making poppies in a crush of white
its pure...

us loving in our barely there
adult twin bodies blue and dark

delight in our delight
buds blazing
but when I dream of women it is always I

delighting to delight

15.7.07

i wonder if im losing who i am with each word i speak as another one known as her

7.7.07

No me juzguen si me gusta el vino
si me gusta el fuego
cuando está despierto

No me juzguen porque duermo
con una lechuza
y la ventana
de par en par
abierta.
No se preocupen si un día
voy de viaje
dentro de mi misma—
granos de arroz
me traerán de vuelta.

Y no me juzguen
si amanezeco
despacio
despedirme de suennos
toma mucho tiempo.

27.6.07

Are the flowers youve brought to the surface to wake me, are they heavenly flowers, are they an excess of petals, oblivious turn to abundance, the ground of the flower.

Is the aspect of sweetness compressed into sea-water breath, as one would bring air to the surface, my shoulders are wet, if this were a pool...

Would I feel a flower so similar to aberrations of color descending to roses, as I would so love to be changed from my likeness to what would parallel our equity instead.
His kiss is just a whisper passed through the salvos juxtaposed with sacredness albeit sans configuro repealants morphity ping prongless saturelment acre-ease my chinstrap en route to grass courts, my glass skirt challenging the light of gravitys hospitable brick fossil path.

Play the oceanic form of cradle in amazed left-justified machine inclusive of slip covers and Jurassic lullabilia. So many prose glyphs numen their way sofaward. Until collaborative safety moans into unwanted facial hair of someone salty in the month of Junes apres-midi continually lurking east of nest points in the fois gras of contagious dithers who becomes important to have touched within the tone row bylines of an apple aimed at teachers desktops scattered through the temporary building.

The earth is yours & everything thats in it.

25.6.07

Deepness is a metaphor belonging to those who beckon all they seek into the vicinity of the imagination. A flower from the theatre. A passionate rural howl. Controversy with style. Ignorance of sleep as if being awake had somehow more virtue. In reality, there are those who see the deep and the shallow as part of the same view. Landscape is perspective. And vice versa. Insight has your dimensions.

4.5.07

words vanish on water
fine polished stones in the palms of a great magician

have you forgotten how to call forth?

the wind is vast yet concise
it shifts the current sideways
picks up just enough sand to thinly blanket my eyes
& plays with the feathers of birds
like a teasing older beloved

only the clouds remain unmoved

a white gardenia in a blue breeze floats by
my love sleeps powdered sweetly on a sheet
a cascading youth nuzzles at my heart
kisses my navel disguising desires

people litter the shore
too many for the waves to carry
too lost & shameless to burrow beneath the sand as crabs
too large to fit into the mouths of gulls

they have forgotten how to know themselves

the magnified light of the sun
burns a hole in my chest
whole chest
where once a smooth polished stone lay -
now disappeared

like words
beneath
the ocean floor

21.4.07

Conjured spoken there is when this place is a blaze
The arc of the dancer speaks to the remembering one
With you there is open visibility to the wind
There is no justice if there cant be peace
& there is always peace
The wind it speaks in triangles
Speaks in circles and squares
In the wind there is a presence of dark & the light of Ma
Of war of justice of peace
In the wind there are the particles of life
That make up the particles of breath
Of death of green and blue & spirit & fruit & moon
Of trail & entrails of trials of holocaust & ceremony
Of silence between the silences of noise within the noise

In the Wind there is a presence
An unseen force that unites us to the earth
An unheard force that unites us to the trees
An unforced presence that unites us to the clouds

In the mouth there is the understanding of tongues
A pastoral untangling
In my breath there is the wind that binds us to the sky
That brings us toward the storm
That wraps us in its eye
That levels us to the ground
& makes us beholden
& humbled
& held in its presence

in the wind there is darkness & light

& particles of man and beast and breath and death and justice and joy

The great mystery
Jaya sleeps inside me
My identity becomes a web of cherry blossoms
Sing oh sound oh speculation
Sing oh nights untiring tune

Its when the one without the hop becomes an outsider
The one without the vision is crazy
Its when the one without guidance is no longer a communicator
When the one who hears clear is called blind
Its when those who exist in everything are considered the simple
And those who run far are simply blossoming
Its when then that we know we all know
Its then that we know we must change

We all feel together that the healing has begun
We all feel together that the this can be overcome
We begin to feel what this is all about
This phenomenal this the place that we come from

Jaya still sleeps inside me

There is this box called paradise with one bright star locked deep within it
There is the labyrinthine skyline zigzagged w/lines of entangled sky
There is this dark light this cold burning sunset
All these who wanna be interlaced
All these mornings elaborate within a pound of grey matter
And this yawning spider sings to turn away

In the wind there is a presence a knowledge to deep to be spoken
Magic and even in my dreams clouds that have every reason
We are our reason
It is not the first time dream catcher

You can spend a lifetime in riding the waves
Spend moments here and feel like youre at home

The wind winds thru me picking up pieces of us and joining us to all others
The moon shifts inside me spoken onward and I understand
The wind picks up the moon one too many mornings I fell
Old scra only as the circle
is where the line will be drawn
when with the dusk
we meet the dawn

do fish sing?
connection of bone to flesh
Rejoicing the music
connection of bone to flesh

in the wind there is a presence roots paths owl eyes

tasting and smelling and hearing and seeing

this is talk of equality...as i follow winding you say hello

Mysteries cannot be proven is love truly enough?
Magic is not localized
Language is not singular

Jaya sleeps inside me In the wind
There is a presence sheltered by every human, every someday, every lily or elephant / do fish sing?

Do fish sing?
Connection of bone to flesh

The oldest tree
Laughed when I asked
Shake with it
Sing to it
With it
You are a very old tree
A rain travels through you
Low cold high heat a wind
The effect of the sacred upon the sacred

We are the receivers
Thru us the total is realized & released
We are the channels
We teach each other and ourselves
We learn from all

Remembering jaya sleeps inside me &
I can speak to something other than the moon

The wind in the wind there is a presence
I go blindly into the wind

The sky is blue concrete
We arrive whole bodies into the prism
Embodied within the origin
Turning into mirrors of water
Facing a lavishing sun
Man
Created within the abundance of colors
Though nothing is without color
Like nothingness itself
In glorious gold & silver
We rejoice in the hands

A connection of flesh to bone

He realized he was his body
And that his body carried him
He realized he was his body
And his body was carried by him
These are created
By the candles in the dark
When the colors show on
a passing afternoon

Freedom jaya sleeps inside me
I plunge into myself and awaken heaven

I dare to believe
light LIGHT
As I am
I am light
We arrive in the light whole bodies
Angels arrive by the river
A river of angels arrive
Light I will always be light
As for in the wind there is a presence
Sleeping soundly inside me
As we all dream of this light

I dream amongst the blues & pinks the earth-encrusted browns & pale yellows
I live in light every day
There is never an absence of light
Never an absence of darkness either
Do not be misled by the moon
Do not be misled by your reflection
Who do you see in the mirror?
Who do you greet today?

Color is a glass eye an eye in a glass in a wooden box a black box with a star in it
Color is tea for two a universal magic an apple as it ripens
An incandescent voyeur a decadent drunk
A gentleman a woman of circumstance a space between the bars
The seasons blending into each other
In the wind there is a presence
A spectrum
A soul
Where sand turns to glass
A color that sings of its birthright
As the connection of truth or question

19.4.07

In facing
the face faces us
we see light and
in light a sea
of particulars a face
we see bodies forth
open and opaque
it calls us
ourselves

we forego
in the realm of
sensuous there is not
a first experience of
ego its image apogee

every face his face
only I see he
defys his pleasure
he alarms he divides
he can neither partake
nor participate

My response
resound with redundancy
In facing the face
pain in your pain
forego ego Be
a - cross threshold
Echo Be Echo
What I will give you
since you asked
lilies wild
midst seas of grass
shining lights all your days
This is what
I give,
what I ask of you
is nothing
I am blessed
by the smallest...
of lifes attentions.

16.4.07

Ring
Hugged gravity of the gibbous
this perfect circle a chipped white plate
its center pale reached the compass leg
enscribing silvery thought red to violet
surrounding bow. How is the world
broken turning in stillness not our moon?

Rising
So large...the tide roiling the sea-wound
and broil like a dream afraid our moon
near. A pale basket being hauled
into the sky beginning a separation
the amazed heart swelling a redness
failing in the west our breath caught up.

Full
What I carry with me from the North
fallen into a glittering field
of sea the waters many small instincts
the timid openings of memory.
Whatever I was, whoever you
are, dolor of luna origins
all around us this stripping off this
pallor as we step out of our names...

1.4.07

adamant and beautiful
with worlds sleeping in our palm
playing in the dark changing into a game
of the day disclosing circle
i fall asleep and wake up
in a land where above
citrus fruit haze rises up the spiral
acceptance of inhaling and exhaling
by the vast water with its mystic bounce
and Im filling up
with every moment
i grasp more and more space
and life in it
throwing the dice i belong
i have love for the same reason
that you are in every raindrop
washing away and rousing silence
in our eyes where several suns are holding
one another with no arms...there...and here
playing in the dark turning into a gala of the light
with you...(always)...with your single breath
as its center.

25.3.07

The space between
the inhale and the
exhale is not so much

a pause as it is a link

a
thread
between

what has been
and
what will be

and that is where
you reside in me

19.3.07

i coalesce
with ease
from breath
to breathing

its sheen
fixes krsna
to speech: a
man can

elevate himself
by his
own mind,
breath to

breathe and
knowing.
benign then
motive

bloods run
thudding
thick & thin
in the waters

deliverance
loves
and
creation

what we shall say
is that,
under sense,
they

cut through the
storms
slipping
clean, away

to the divine
numbering
one to nine
allowing you

to believe
with uniqueness
the way
I remain

18.3.07

A held breath
begins the poem
of our making

and unmaking-nights drifting
between many days. The sea
was calm, its music impossibly

translated. Flames
curl like waves, or was it
that these waves
curl like flames?


*

Travel homeward
seemed to
dream, such a
foreign affair
made no
grace of
misgiving. When
the door
with its
beautiful narrator
shook her head
then proceeded
"Our
other
selves, being similar
but
away,
remain
awake to
the sparks,"
united, then untied.


*

Hello again but in reverse
to the far-flung alarm
of stars through a window.

This sleep whose disheveled night
untunes your island, Shalom.

Silver eyes and hair and
the roaring heavens your definitions of water
pretermit.


*

Impossibly-translated water, I disappear:

Water impossibly translated as "the path
that leads away from itself." What the knight saw
could be implausibly translated as "I study,
I make out your face through my stare."

Even the most imperfectly rendered water
flows downward, widening, wearing away its ground
in the free.


*

Unless patterns pursue themselves like waves,
unless patterns…unless they
pursue themselves….unless
waves…well
sea-light will not be cajoled,

into sufficient distraction
except on condition you explain realism under the temples:
offering to water
wilderness of water
rivers fluctuating in quarter tones
reservoir to be read as temporary relief

and the same assuming your place in the book
of perpetually seeking flow.


*

He eyes her eyes,
starminded.


*

Sleeping ends by melting
itself into dizzy eye-journeys
arousing a seal, light to light.

Begin
comparing abstracts
on pleasure, passing birds
from hand to hand.


*

What one dreams
the other describes:
a mirrored water,
unmade breath.

Mischievous weather
weve been having,
Abounding distances

impossibly translated
on this dry tongue
as the capitol of Mists

16.3.07

This is the Master of heaven, who is like unto Venus and the
moon, and this is the house of Love, which is without bound and
end.

Rumi

15.3.07

sculpture
moon
abyss

sun
bird
star

strangers in a hidden world

14.3.07

I see two blue dragonflies hovering, end
to end, above a pond, as if twisting
the iridescence deep into each other's
body, abdomens writing, spiraling

into the wing-beaten air. And your voice
comes back to me through the trees, this word
for what we couldn't help but do
to each other -- a thin sigh, unwinding.

13.3.07

12.3.07

Love means you breathe in two countries
what if you were able
to know what I have felt
when powered by the way
we are made
I have felt all of my body
its excess and its strength
thrive up to the creation of my middle
spine steepling to bring me closer
to the speed of native energy
to share that
with you
would be a divine relation
It may have been Lyon we met in
or som odar city north enough
to dim at midday when a cloud
lay over

I had said one word and
you were of mi mind to be
come summer latening time with me
how we went

or wound up on an
arizona mountain I did not
have to know when I woke to your
trim expose

we were already
quenched it seemed but you fed me choc-
olate with love and let me use
your teeth for ball

I did not
dare to plan or yet
even though this was mine
and we had arrived
eye to eye

you were off alone to
climb the mountains which i did not deso-
late nor did I wonder why I
only watched through the windows

you carried an
animal in your arms
but what mattered most was to
drive to the top

an surprise the moons
or...not in that we had
agreed without a word I would say
what I meant was

a love too good to be
talkative we could trust in to
lengthen a moment beyond known reach
I started
up to where I would
meet you

have not reached it yet but I
know who you were and you know as i would like to be

Oxygen feeds a flame.
So I invite you to breathe down my neck.

7.3.07

Your heart is flying, he said
his weight against her chest
It does that, she said
drawing him in

6.3.07

Last night I could hear my divine being called
and i awoke unbounded finally free
allowing of nuestro cielo
calling out to me

Remembering libre a
etherealize as to call each others names
into another strange land
in the hopes of this strength
blossoming into roots...

Remembering asilo
the roots so deep
sustain not the thorny leaves, surely
but what lights underneath
a reason to put our hands
deeper into each

Remembering siempre
I will always prefer to travel
the long way home
so that beauty will be an island
sung from el alma del m a usted

Remembering pureza
I will sing escatimando
what is holy is circular
what is holy bends
what is holy,
is kind

Remembering InI
The eagle has flown
the stars are out
luminoso sabio
i can hear the voice
i can hear the seas

Remembering InI
If you cant find me
Search the skies
I am empty
I am complete

5.3.07


moving over forest gold
i wish you were an owl
gliding slowly into the night
to see you pass the big silver moon
and watch as your wings
swim the current
of our interlaced soul

3.3.07

do you prefer the deep rise of natural evening
to ride the current of the earth
as if inertia the steam of its own propelling?
do you too possess that boundless energy?
energy of what? of affinity! of pestilence!
...it is unavoidable...
i am both

so...tell me
tell me so...
what do you hear when the sun comes descending
when the rain stops...and starts...and stops again?
I know you hear afar this
silence
I know your feet dont understand our
stillness
I think what we need now is to learn how to stand next to the fire
while oustide the children can giddy-up in piles of sun-shine
pretty as pitter & putter being thwarted from my path
but desire, as you get in the way of this
you sharpen my senses like an aged noctiluca in the lambent.

and I am frail against your power but
I could shatter you against the wind
clop you knowing things will eventually make sense
had I the tools
and the daring energy
had I eternity to complete the task
and a brigade of soldiers to lift me each time I fell.

Love, your fire is not in the form of beloved ones, those dynasty creators,
or blue eyes that bring simple companionship and laughter
Your fire is the unannounced lover
that leaves in my skin the imprint of desire
that does not know how to go on staying in peace
that slowly inflames my life.

A bandit, you watch the bed of passion all night
and flee with new eyeballs once trust has been given
Embezzler of harmony, instiller of aflutter venom:
desire, let me be...

Leave me to the songs I have always been singing
for they are songs
that do not whimper
when the last note
is sung:
Leave me the songs that do not fear their own ending
and can therefore
be belted
as if despair
has never won.

2.3.07

I captured his appetite
tasted it

and regardless of his
demands

I wont give it back
until we are full
levitate over the torso
induce the confusion like
asphyxiate
reciprocate

love for loves sake

conversations get filtered like sand
stare;
study the eyes
dont just look

try to figure out
why im the first one
discovered
at the end of every night

platform of love
I pull myself away from the edge
You dont know me but
we trapeze anyway
tomorrow more
unpredictability & freedom
tomorrow or the next day
or the day after that
all i know is
Today
is an acrobat

28.2.07

Yo sueño que regreso
un día cualquiera
to the pleasure of letting
the earth slip through my fingers
Yo vivo en permanente exilio
when I dream
I can only speak in tongues of desire
when I dream
of stretched bodies as my island
awaiting mi
Yo puedo perderme en las prominencias
de tu cuerpo
in the sugar cane flavor of your tongue
in the dark cinnamon color of your gaze
Yo puedo perderme rozando tus riberas
like a wave
piérdase dentro de usted
Yo sólo sueño que regreso
I can only speak in the tongues of desire
en vuelo
from your body
what is tucked between entangled hair
and the moment somewhat marvelous
is the truth that there is nothing
between us except for us
the light can surely see us
as there is a hum
beating...a glow
but all one hears
is the sea
upon nearby rockiness
and voices
which chorus
through the floating nights
the sky...white
dashing with gleam
the moon melting...
through the horizon
where my vibrant mica star
glints your pearls
blissfully sweet
"...babae, babae!"

“qué pasa?”
“einu sinni enn sólin skín, afturkoma...”
universo de universos,
la lumière luit dans the darkness
en medio del silencio profundo:
“khob, no ké resid bé bâzâr kohné shavad delâzâr” -
en la eternitad…
la luz, no pueden sofocarla,
se para la marea, y no saber adónde vamos…
«róba, pródajeteli ?» «né,dósta»;
et Parcae dixerunt saeculo: mahlip...
iau, atti, attunu, mamma, mala bašû -
esperad todavía
Under the Bo-tree
the Budd-ha-to-be
sought something
beyond opposites,
beyond thought
Talking about it,
even here, in the
holy tabernacle of verse,
is missing it.
Instead of turning away.
In the giving up,
between the giving up
and the engagé
his page will be
our distance
going blank
with all that
you seek.

27.2.07

Wings too divine
in air so cold its edges mark
winters end and springs first pulse.
In the poised crystal I fly silhouettes
that fold closed, then open,
now in prayer, now in possibility.

26.2.07



this...heart...just...knows
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22.2.07

I am more like an act of god
than the sea
roaring underneath me
rising light everywhere
old waves fade away
underneath your tongue
as they trace my ashes
drawing out the woman
who died under this skin
because learning to fall
is mastery
but to arise in the hands
that collect us
teaches one
ascend to awaken
then begin

20.2.07

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15.2.07

?...tis dis oan abut mi...?

run << from >> t e <<

c h a n * g o

run >> towards << n w >>

13.2.07


Consciousness is More Vast than Language
Greater than Your Personality
Love is a Key
To Your Power
And
Your Joy

8.2.07

What shall we two do with a weight of absence evidently skipping & a fashionable assize hung within us like a crystal clear comprehen-sible en-rapturing calling forth question-ing if you are so passionate as you say an as I dare but not believe it so this cannot last as long as velvet in snow with spoors and roots braiding a scarf of sun-light streaming on your neck my own temporaliry a whsssst of livity age-old owl eyes soul silvery at dusk white branches blossoming and withering forth ruines of harmonizing what we create equally plundering limpid luminous how so ever translucid I am in myself I would as soon forget all good an eclipse of here & here in-let as you lay waking in the cotton clouds of the fifteenth evening for I have feet that slip out of shoes ankles that spiral a blue neck a fearful little rebel like the multitude in your kingdom seeking the way ahead where the fire is cold and early deaths have decomposed behind my eyes an tilted mirrors sing forth where birds can rise from the roof of my mouth where it is past repair an stars mix compounding sin as it is invisible it does not kiss the block bumbling it requires a bungling amateurish blundering crispness floundering asking for pulse a practice you can run your hand over the loosened lily neck-lace splintering its thistle spine astonishing how rapture keeps words singing like crickets high even as I overlay illusory awake in every swirling my swishing murmuring there just there it goes whirlwind gone sprawling and gold glistening all its weight lit up to become...slowww

7.2.07

We are pain and what cures pain, both.
We are the sweet cold water and the jar that pours.
I want to hold you close like a lute,
so that we can cry out with loving.
Would you rather throw stones at a mirror?
I am your mirror and here are the stones.

Rumi

5.2.07

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this = love
I watched you
grow full of suspicions
making guesses weigh more
get too large
A forest of tall-grown illusions
each whispering their own stories.

Lost in the trees
Daphne, too, is not what he seems.
The birds that nest on his branches
never suspect that he
bark-covered
refused the love of a paradise
the love of a god.

You said
I sing you know
Oh, I know you sing
like a bird, I bet
but not for me
not to me
Then you walked away
toward the trees,
sprouting leaves.

30.1.07

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Dear ___,
I was seeing from a distance. It stayed small for quite a while. Then volcanoes came. And now
There's a hole in the middle of life. (the body) The flashbacks will remind us. See what the room sees. A collection of cells.
Where as your face was on the rivers coloring;
I was myself, to join what had been separate. To translate without moving; a veneer, a grassy green.
Youve now created me into backwards light. The sound of lilies in my head are like paper hands.
Youve become the stone in my left hand. A kindred mind with mine.
Yet. I still dont who we are, but Two.
The sea also has no idea, having lavished itself on diamonds, repeatedly asking.
Who put us here?
Who put us here with these eyes?
So this morning I looked to the sky. The sky looked down.
The wind whispered silver from the ground
'He is in heaven with his eyes.
And when he was a child you were the rain,
He and absolute were all the clear,
Fragrant spaces and mind among mine'

The birds knew, and the clouds too. I was looking far too near.

29.1.07



ample make this bed
make this bed with awe
purple & russet silk  
gold flame pattern  
birdwing coat  
scent of sunflower pollen   
myrrh & pale jasmine   
iridescent water weave   
grass green rose dust   
falls loosely over shoulders   
plum leaf: haze, light  
spilling water bowl, a morning   
of skin skimming freshly woven  

28.1.07

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27.1.07

A LONG FALL INTO
INTELLIGENCE

in love with

WHITE SEA CLIFF EDGES
PATH THROUGH CYPRESS...WHERE WE'RE HEADED

eyes open
I am walking straight toward you, listening.
Morning hours and delicate words are all I have to reach you.
The small clay figure of a boy
Whose belly is warm with each full moon
The thumbprint sun on this boy who makes me lie down
So that we lie slow and even above where grey is blue
Love remembers our skin & speaks dreams in each room
While in this bright air, a man is awakening
against marble that flares everything white
in the sound of cicadas & wind
The invisible is not hiding.
Appearance is not a hollow shell.
The doves are your doves.
Not emblems. Not hidden.
They are close as the waters clear salt
and where my heart dives no less.

26.1.07

The crushed lava and
coral bed of your
meaning falls between
parted fingers, opening
dusk concealed between
stars. Nine heavens of
Tagaloa circle
above the children of
earth and spirit:
Fatu, the heart, a woman
Ele-ele, the earth, a man
what is the skeins of strains of lie
grafted on the table
what is the tiniest light in your eye
all night and into the next life
a searing vestibule
you are obviously listening
awake

hold it there anatomy
there are holy ideals for the erudite
& anyways im less engaged of space

a perpetual sniffling
sitting next to the Sikh at the gateway
shibuki 2:45am
crumble my walls
hold a carnival in my wake
one mans jaw drops as anothers
flagrant ember clasp
pry ring finger pray pyre of glass pleased
fell from his pocket
& covered the highway stretched
as far as an open mind

ride again, a zeroed in,
a junket river of hidden filigree
river ribbons

quick...get it before he sees

enscribe sunrise afterlight;
my bones
bowed awry
like pebbles
embraced
you.
Are you
sad?
Yes, but not
like that
she said
and
swam
away.

24.1.07

Enchantment
is a song
the body must remember how to sing.

23.1.07

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persistent perennial pleasure in place amongst the peripheral paranormal perfection of predicted preferred predicaments perceived in penetrated personal panoramic peacefulness of parallel passages procrastinating phonetic participation

22.1.07

Moonshine spirit and a glass of night wool
Magic blinking...waiting...Shining in the mirror
Firewater blue...Omid hue
Rush of wind passing over
Inbetween existing
Testing depth...You disappear to immure

I once knew a man with the stars sung onto his soul
Sweeping but sensually darting
Floating below
A gypsy witch...he echoed of where the body has broke

But you can
Cheer up now
Amato
Dont wait too long
Its time to sit on the sun for
My love's another kind
For our gala jubilee I climb the burial mound in the field and build a small fire with last years wood to warm my body through another wandering duskiness. Like teepees, auric sheaves stand where we lulled once under summers deep water. Slowly, the green eyes of silos blink on as the sun arches across the Catalan sky.

The moon climbs out of the field where arrowheads work to the surface sure as memories triggered by a savored aura indulgence, where the heat of my body and yours was enough to unlock the earth, where the wind now swirls the ghosts of forgone beloveds above me like clouds shimmering over the moon.

Tonight, frost halos my body and a long fuse of stars sizzle past moments that will always bind me to you: the doe we hit before we embodied that tried to run with broken legs; the night I found you blue beside me in bed and breathed you back from betrayal; the stripling we have and the growing inside of you. The door that Ive built with my heat stands open revealing twilight.
In my body of skin of moss of clover
I touch fingers to fingers
lips to lips
the exposed tip of the heart

Seed work Sun work Earth work
If pansies are for thoughts
I pick them early in the morning so they last

21.1.07

The moon sings the mountain down to the sea
as the sun wraps itself around the horizon

Air runs like a hand lightly across my body
Voices pirouette like echoes in a braid of flowing tongues

We trace the flicker of dragonflies skimming the water
their imprint light as ash

We hold fruit with its sweet flesh
dream of seeds, silky membrane
fitting the palm perfectly

It is time to Kiss the Earth
count freshly painted stars
running ocean
Here where there is only stillness



and Love, I wish upon you this ecstacy

The lotus moon still blooming
as we exchange liquid looks
dark as antique honey

Time, calm and airy
waking up unveiled in the garden
and rising in love again
easily...so easily
your lips are missing the story

18.1.07

Recite a large print love aria
into my lower back

Seek out my amiable arch
appearing in the dropped-beauty of the rooftop

Like a dragon it radiates flame


I applaud you as a founder passing...between
skin curls tighter in whirls of fingered identity seity - what’s begun with convergence is ending with time creating lightening in a crystal glassed course for defection making this abnormal as the home of curiosity sends its tricks writ with extended hands on a sloping belly then under to feel nothing more than mind over matter cleaned out like siroccos to besprinkle hidden worlds unveiled
pieces trip over themselves and metal is flying with sparks - select which time is worth giving when one is too small to breathe keeping what is unable to die not yet alive in ambiguity meaning siding with the unknown is an unwilling chance best to change your dream before the song falls into traces
keep one wrapped in elastic holes to breathe and shutter stripped - this body a greenhouse concocted to sustain something other so self will never again open of its own accord and becomes memory displayed in concrete and absence or a worth to be measured in possibilities and abstracts
interlock tangle of threads ask how strong the silence is in black and white if a model of flesh turned thickened spurns more tepid notion than finger pressed fabric faded into particles and pollen teased petals over grey if hands form image of image but this truth is never free for view
what if landscape must be discovered without remembering the time before we noticed what is outside is no longer a piece of what is in the way of our gazing
and tell me then what to make
of the candle flickering, drilled into the glacier
which will then expire
while he respires...still although
and assures that what is is
and what is not is (anyhow, what the hell)

. . . al hezzaz catches al hamama
. . . al khiate satisfies al taleb
. . . an naasse surprises al mokabeul
. . . az zoddame meets al zeunbar
I cradle your world…
which I could never touch...

14.1.07

you can bring back a circumstance
in contrasting light
reveal a twinkling second
where each phenomenons call will be luminous.

but when you shadow the depiction
of the star cluster, insignificant
chalk on your
eyes will be dragged by force,
the sway of my hair.
he would have said the habit lives in colors. the strained words have taken away their meanings. the low sea is rising to the windows of our careless longing palace caves.
but he could not speak from a tongue no longer muscled by thought. deserted by language and by the sky of mirror traced. its moths and fingers combined. that the light...it entered through the back of his eyes.
he would have said I am the only speaker of my body. but the three strung vines of him were not listening. they heard the fleeing that is both temporal and eternal. they heard the sea.
breaking all form.
rising elegantly.
a wingless bird to its depths.

how deeply is this felt? (it is possible to air impression as much as him and still find it divinely softened to abide than he does.) but that it is impossible to imagine...makes the castle-building reverie so vivid and terrifying.

12.1.07

In this scene trees crawl like spiders to catch the wind, snow perplexes a blue sky while branches shake from the weight of it your sense of direction flips into the once puzzling provincialism to exhibit resonanting partially and they only partially cover their mistakes by swimming even more seductively toward you you become the subtlest of superfluous as your daily thought and feeling grow fleeting and infinite self-perpetuating and impossibly more resilient. ready to alight on steepled sand in lamplight. even though you live by the sea you no longer dream of fragile roads on islands of mythical syntaxes. you still climb two sets of stairs but have blurred them. if anything goes amiss you resort to the simple design of standing in bright light unthreading far flung peninsulas until the letters run from your skin.
Sometimes they feel like separate grains of sand of clouds pulled to earth sifting to the center blending peacefully finally in their own relation while along some horizons light shines from distant dreamed hills along others this or that mythic shell complicit with their desire thinks to wear a mask soaked in the rays of their eyes of scattering uncanny fingerprints to smooth skirmishes clearing the way for a more or less ruthless actual history of misunderstanding grounds that climb upward with the smoke from the result of an instant sending signals how a new story and its recipient bend each others bodies off the ground outside the book bathed in blind light and love new hands at all hours pages turning at all hours upending your whisper rhythmic and turning forth behind breeze in ear on throat an unworked mass of puddled iron and adonis particles bent back slowly like a sapling filled heavy with faith kneeling only where faces sketched find comfort in the wall that unhinges impassioned where wisdom stirs and you can surrender curled like the trees or you can crumble the fire...glittering...nowhere.

11.1.07

morning loves removed lovers
and we are
brutally
removed
tepori, gli uni agli altri,
vedette, sempre visitanti,
quiete non resta mai,
mano che non avvolge,
lacera, accartoccia,
torce la pelle, un livido,
e ne fa stemma, stigma,
un accadere muto, trafelato,
un rapido interrompere.
vuoi che si assordi, che rimanga?
It will be a glorious day
when you melt into the earth
Mujer de mi vida, ven a las agues. Ayúdame a purificarme con el exorcismo pagano. Mira mi casa y sus lumbres, no te quedes en la superficialidad, no escribas sobre tu carne los nombres de peces.

Según las circunstancias he traficado con las hojas que se acercan y con voces.

Mi casa es la cabeza, decir esto me reconforta.
X – Why such nothing.
Y – Let it be between us.
X – Why this less than that.
Y – There is only this us at now.
X – Why such serial why.
Y – I remain your hybrid half of this.
Y – I am also not yet an other.
Y – Nor even this as such yet and now.
X – This then at that.
Y – Only then as such.

10.1.07

eight inches
solar plexus

9.1.07

They...they tell me
Heaven is in these lips
But
Once I...I...well I kissed the bottom of the sole
Of the foot of a boy
Who ran into the ocean and
Drowned deep
Down below...
incline

interval. wonder.
statement as indicator. never. always.
always. never. abstract designs.
small paths. the equation of the tangent mind.
wander. circle. between/
idea/configuration.
ourselves trusted.


´´´´

design in blue

logic/probability
random/calculated

transcendental numbers
irrational numbers

complex numbers
real & imaginary

two parallel universes meet


````

precarious

the balance of leaf

the balance of star

unknown pages

maps hidden in clouds

geometrical patterns perceived in trees

silence & uncertainty manifesting

infinity times two


´´´´


voyaging
precarious

our
voices
waves

speculate
light

suns
moons

contour
air

our
bodies
in
orchards

wind
&
iris


````

poet
&
artist

floating
worlds

philosophic
worlds

fleeting

inclined
indirect

8.1.07

Each of our bodies
represents an approach
to movement within
the world’s circumference
my muscles soften underneath the
chinese-water-torture-drip
of seconds passing into seconds
passing into years
You were conceived on Sussex clay
The kind of clay that lines Downland dewponds
And figurative sites adorned
The touch of moisture makes it swell
It lures you in
That's when it takes hold, the golden clay, at invention
Apprehension
Growing up free as the swallow tied to instinct's route
As clay platelets, like Bentonite, seal, steal into cells
Gravity will pull a denser child down
You climb The Hill
DreamRide the clouds
And read withal of distant lives
Careless of settling layers of summer's dust
You could have left while light enough
To escape naked to the Back of the North Wind
But that flying horse you chose
Slowed, Stumbled, Broken-Winded
Fetlock deep in clay, leafless as
White bones compassed
Enriching the yellowclay land
Waiting ‘til Anderida drew them from the soil
breathing them out to drift
With the settling dust

5.1.07

Heads bowed,
her knees crumb-ling,
him sinking.
She holds a photo,
him squinting.
the Sun
the son.
Sun at the wheel,
the white locomotive is still
further by far than far away.
But on the move, on its way.

4.1.07

i swim in your every vowel
swallow
your salted words
and burn my eyes
in your uphill expressions

so
please...
carry me to shore
where I can
imprint your sands
and run my hands
down. Well,
You've been "kind"
and I, I...I

(thank you)

And am reminded
of a time when we still loved the ocean
and everything you did was just a simple act
to sea-change
Sometimes I think that
Mother Nature should have breast fed
deep Sea dive
listening for the
mysterious Rhythms
we make
slipping in my fingers
somersault ricochet
closed eyes
Open Me
Transform

Avignon knows that April has arrived
a week has passed, and perfection closed-
who has seen this language sprouting a wheel of air?
Recant, your life wicked, perhaps
a shelter becomes intensified
to find an easier existence found for embraced Art
When the war became, and open flowed expense
can curling pleasure hurt the Earth
now that pain is documented?
In Hearts true strength the burden passed
into quiet ceasing moments-years
fragrant pastures blaze in golden Light
She is softness, your Renaissance, old man
ninety famous stretches, fulsome holic-
pretty silence, clothed at last, your love
atoms listen with their purple cells
and...dont ask
the unsure-what it means-

3.1.07

Vibrate

Yo
Xu
Izaz
Ya-Ish
Ish-We-Ye-E
Ko
A
Naa
Ae
O
Ish-Tai-Ish
Ku
Zu-O-Ko-A-Sha-Naa

2.1.07

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1.1.07

the miracle of changed consciousness
comes from placing the attention
above the difficulties of the day

with deep Gratitude
comes true humility
a key to the Fountain of Youth

Gratitude lights the way to enthusiasm.
enthusiasm clears the path to Love
Love is the key to freedom
BE
fountains of youth,
standing waves
whhirrrling, swirling to sur-face
shifting slightly...
just enough to
make wakes of Gratitude

dizziness optional
GOOD...NESSSSSSS


love...why dont you just sweep me off my feet and anyways...please saleei keep it comin'

27.12.06

Divine Coding
contained within Gratitude:

egg = beginning = creation
spiral = journey = discovery
circle = completion = return to Now


this formula,
held sacred for all creative purposes,
Will Divinely structure Now
to support
all generations

Living in Love

24.12.06

When you accept changes in your sovereign reality
as the shifting persona of the Universal Soul,
you live in greater harmony with life itself.

Life becomes an exchange of energy between you
and the Universal Soul that is allowed to play out;
without judgment, and is experienced without fear.
This is the underlying meaning of unconditional love:
to experience life in all its manifestations as a single,
unified intelligence that responds perfectly to the projected image of each soul.


It is for this reason that when you project Gratitude to the Universal Soul,
regardless of circumstance or condition,
life becomes increasingly supportive in opening you to activate your divine imprints.
This feeling of Gratitude coupled with the mental concept of appreciation
is expressed like an invisible message in all directions and at all times.


In this particular context, gratitude to the Universal Soul
is the overarching motive behind all forms of expression to which humanity aspires.


Every breath, every word, every touch, every thought, every thing
is centered on expressing this sense of Gratitude;
a Gratitude that you are sovereign and supported by a Universal Soul
that expresses itself through all forms and manifestations of intelligence
with the sole objective of creating the ideal reality
to activate your divine imprints
and transform your entire being into Divine Essence.


It is this specific form of Gratitude that accelerates
the activation of your divine imprints
and their peculiar ability to integrate the disparate components
of your body, mind, heart, and soul, and to transform them
to the state of perception and expression of Divine Essence....


Establishing a relationship with the universe
through the outflow of Gratitude
also attracts life experience that is trans formative -
experience that is richly devoted to uncovering life's
deepest meaning and most formative purpose.

23.12.06

Open your fist.
As my hand withdraws,
I bring it to my chest
nest.

My arm moves across you.

Hands face
your body. They form an X.

Outside
right.
Raise the wheel while pinning.
Hands near your temples.
Raise your body.
On the moon, not a cloud,
a catastrophic glow—O
the stars are little doors, little doors,
open one, a million more.
Every life is braided with luminous moments.

I was with a friend out on Loch Corrib, the largest lake in the West of Ireland. It was a beautiful summer's day. Time had come to rest in the silence and stillness that presided there. The lake slept without a ripple. A grey-blue haze enfolded everything. There was no division any more between earth and sky. Reaching far into the distance, everything was suffused in a majestic blue light. The mountains of Conamara seemed like pile upon pile of delicate blue; you felt you could almost reach out your hand and pull them towards you. No object protruded anywhere. Trees, stones, fields and islands had forgotten themselves in the daze of blue. Then, suddenly, a harsh flutter as near us the lake surface split and a huge cormorant flew from inside the water and struck up into the air. Its ragged black wings and large awkward shape were like an eruption from the underworld. Against the finely woven blue everywhere its strange form fluttered and gleamed in absolute black. She had the place to herself. She was the one clear object to be seen. And as if to conceal the source as she soared, she left her shadow thistling the lake surface. This was an event of pure disclosure: a sudden epiphany from between the worlds. The strange beauty of the cormorant was a counterpoint to the dreamlike delicacy of the lake and the landscape. Sometimes beauty is that unpredictable; a threshold we had never noticed opens, mystery comes alive around us and we realize how the earth is full of concealed beauty. St Augustine expressed this memorably: 'I asked the earth, I asked the sea and the deeps, among the living animals, the things that creep. I asked the winds that blow, I asked the heavens, the sun, the moon, the stars, and to all things that stand at the doors of my flesh ... My question was the gaze I turned to them. Their answer was their beauty.'

Beauty Is Quietly Woven through Our Days

When we hear the word 'beauty', we inevitably think that beauty belongs in a special elite realm where only the extraordinary dwells. Yet without realizing it, each day each one of us is visited by beauty. When you actually listen to people, it is surprising how often beauty is mentioned. A world without beauty would be unbearable. Indeed the subtle touches of beauty are what enable most people to survive. Yet beauty is so quietly woven through our ordinary days that we hardly notice it. Everywhere there is tenderness, care and kindness, there is beauty. Despite our natural difficulties with our parents, each of us has in our memory moments of deep love we shared with them. Perhaps it was a moment in which you became aware of some infinite tenderness in the way your mother gazed upon you, and you knew that her heart would always carry you as tenderly as it carried herself. Or it might have been a phrase of affection that has continued to sound around your life like a bright circle of blessing.

In Greek the word for 'the beautiful' is to kalon. It is related to the word kalein which includes the notion of 'call'. When we experience beauty, we feel called. The Beautiful stirs passion and urgency in us and calls us forth from aloneness into the warmth and wonder of an eternal embrace. It unites us again with the neglected and forgotten grandeur of life. The call of beauty is not a cold call into the dark or the unknown; in some instinctive way we know that beauty is no stranger. We respond with joy to the call of beauty because in an instant it can awaken under the layers of the heart a forgotten brightness. Plato said: 'Beauty was ours in all its brightness ... Whole were we who celebrated that festival' (Phaedrus).

Beauty does not linger, it only visits. Yet beauty's visitation affects us and invites us into its rhythm, it calls us to feel, think and act beautifully in the world: to create and live a life that awakens the Beautiful. A life without delight is only half a life. Lest this be construed as a plea for decadence or a self-indulgence that is blind to the horrors of the world, we should remember that beauty does not restrict its visitations only to those whom fortune or circumstances favour. Indeed, it is often the whispers and glimpses of beauty which enable people to endure on desperate frontiers.

Even, and perhaps especially, in the bleakest times, we can still discover and awaken beauty; these are precisely the times when we need it most. Nowhere else can we find the joy that beauty brings. Joy is not simply the fruit of circumstance; we can choose to be joyous independent of what is happening around us. The joyful heart sees and reads the world with a sense of freedom and graciousness. Despite all the difficult turns on the road, it never loses sight of the world as a gift. St Augustine said: 'The soul is weighed in the balance by what delights her. Delight or enjoyment sets the soul in her ordered place. Where the delight is, there is the treasure.' Perhaps this is why there is such delight in beauty. In the midst of fragmentation and distress beauty draws the soul into an experience where an elegant order prevails. This brings a lovely tranquillity and satisfies the desire of the soul. When the Beautiful continues on its way, the soul has been strengthened by a delight that will further assist her in transfiguring struggle.
Noah's ark came to my house one day
With all of his animals and he...took me away
speed of nerve impulse = 136 meters per second
speed of sound = 340.29 meters per second
speed of light = 186,000 miles per second
speed of thought = will
speed of intention = discipline
speed of acceptance = grace
speed of release = compassion
speed of Love = You
speed of Gratitude = Now

21.12.06

Awakening is a flowering of your innermost being.
It is a revelation of your essence,
hidden by long eons of self-delusion,
ignorance,
unbounded desires.

Enlightenment is an ending as well as a beginning:
the ending of the old, veiled, dark ego,
its longings, illusions, frustrations;
the beginning of a vast expanse,
an infinite field of the Unknown,
an adventure in consciousness.

It is a revolution:
it represents danger to the old way of life,
to old ways of thinking and living.

It is freedom from the known and the unknown;
from the real and the unreal;
from any appearance of division between you and Truth.

It is the abandoning of beliefs, dis-beliefs,
presumptions and stances,
self, ego,
call it what you will,
or call it nothing,
what it is.

It is the Path of the golden Dawn,
the Path out of the Night of Time
into the Bursting daylight of Eternal Now...

- Petros

18.12.06

i : you : too

17.12.06

water crystals reveal
structural alterations
bent by vibration
being currently
arranged to display Now

love beats true
within waking waters of time
called You and I

masterfully guided through Gratitude
this Source force Will create
bodies bent on behaving with
benevolent intentions
designed to witness
Life as waking Art

13.12.06

December is a key transitional month in which it's essential that we get ourselves unstuck from our old patterns and leap onto our new level, The River of Love. Throughout the month there will be Quantum Surf to help us break through. The entire momentum of the prevailing currents is leading us forward into an extremely exciting time, the time we have been waiting for, and we really don't want to miss it!

We've spent lifetimes mining for gold in a place that has already been stripped of all its minerals. There is no more gold left hidden in these rocks. And yet many of us are still mining there and feeling the constant disappointment that we are not finding what we have been so diligently searching for. This has caused us to become disheartened or numbly passive. It has made us lose our trust and covered us with a fine layer of dust.

We haven't found what we've been looking for because we've been looking for it in the wrong places and the wrong timing, not because we were looking for the wrong things. Our truest heart's desires are absolutely valid and they are finally on the brink of manifesting on the physical.

We have passed the Point of No Return. There is no going backwards and there is no more traveling on old roads. If we do, it will shorten our time on this planet and damage our beings. Remember, "OUR ONLY OPTION IS TO SUCCEED." Indeed, our only option is to now move our beings onto the totally new level which is right in front of us, and to jump into the River of Love with our full beings.

As increasing numbers of us leap into the River of Love, the resonance of Real True Love will spread all over the world, strengthening the resonance of Love for all and dissolving the final knots of duality.

5.12.06

Tonight I want nothing more than to
slide beneath your hands
in this clockless universe...
to smell your love upon my skin
while the ghostly hills pass
still walking at midnight...
walking behind
I move through drifting fog smoke rising from black vernal pools a dark spiral above tight piers of tiny boats circling fields beyond watercolor dunes cool lupine renegade poppies fiery mustard cascading i hear loves voice restless hanging reverberating in the air disturbing tones from a kabuki spring trance siberian sentencing from my mouth witness to where the silver moon flies into dreams kingdom mosaic musings awaking to my face tranquil to bliss
I want to hold your edges...Ascend into the mouth of your survival

4.12.06

When fire is the language
our limbs attack together the
fortresses of distance to free the sky
When skin is molten metal
I feel within me
his placidness a baffle to my brief joy

And in the burning garden
I shudder at the stranger
immune to the ellipsis
in our clipped cry

29.11.06

i can jump a three thousand year old desert
i can bound over the mountains of the moon
i can bend over jupiters blues
i can allow the seas to send seven songs of wisdom
from their deep throated estuaries
i can allow the stars to shine
but i can never call the rain mine

yet.
i am still a six thousand year old cave painting. yours
i am still a bat in an attic. yours
i am still a bee in the ceiling. yours
i am still a butterfly in a lanternhouse. yours

you are still that sunbeam that races over the sand. mine
you are still that corner i am about to walk around. mine
you are still channels and winds alive. mine
you are still that lofty
love making
arm bending
granite crunching
heart of. mine
i am the news
oil painted oceans
laced rivers over curves
crafted trees in pipe cleaners
crumpled tissue paper
populated land masses
with egg box buildings
representing living things
in magic marker dots and lines
colour coded stickers
reapplying the glue